Today I am thankful for: feeling better!, Darrin's willingness to practice tkd, Madi's loving heart, Josh being Josh (I love how he makes me feel better just by being himself!), a brief conversation with my mom, a beautiful fall day, the coming rain, my son telling me he loves me forever forever forever & forever
Today I am challenged and convicted by my reading in Ecclesiastes to apply myself more to the work God has given me! I am so blessed to be home raising my family. I've wanted this for so long, and God even changed Josh's heart on the matter so I'm certain I'm to be home teaching my children and taking care of my husband and our home. There are many days I'm tempted to call it quits and enroll our kids in public school because it would be easier on me to do the housework that gets so sorely neglected! There are days I wonder why the Lord didn't gift me to keep house if this is what He's called me to. There are times when fatigue and temper get the best of me and I wonder why I'm bothering with home education at all. When all of this negativity and second-guessing strikes I remind myself that I MUST be doing the right thing because following God won't always be easy! And all of these thoughts that are telling me to quit, give up, give in, stop--I know I shouldn't listen because the Holy Spirit usually speaks in the affirmative, right? And if He is telling me no, then I would've gotten the point by now.
So in reading Ecclesiastes tonight I've come to a realization: if God has assigned me to be a stay-at-home-mom and home educator, then if I'm applying myself with diligence, then a whole lot of my negative self-doubt should cease! Eccl. 11:4 "He who observes the wind will not sow, and he who regards the clouds will not reap." I'm very guilty of letting the "what ifs" keep me from accomplishing something. I'm l-a-z-y! It's a sinful nature I'm so tired of and really need to give to God! I have tried and tried, certainly, but maybe not hard enough? Eccl. 9:10 "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work or device or knowledge or wisdom in the grave where you are going." I owe it to God who's gifted me with a family to care for to love them and care for them with might and diligence. When I'm gone, I'm gone; there will be no mother or wife to love, instruct, and care for them as I have done. Should the Lord call me home sooner rather than later, the work I have done will have an enormous impact on how my family continues--will they follow the Lord in all things? Will they keep house and care for each other? Will they children's education continue in a manner pleasing to the Lord? I must use the time I'm blessed with to prepare my children's hearts and minds to serve God with joy and gladness. My husband should know my passion for him and should find rest in his home so we can enjoy time as a family when he is off work.
Dearest Lord, I come to You humbled and a bit daunted by the work You have assigned me! I need Your help greatly! Please give me the discipline and focus to care for my family--to nurture my husband and children, to instruct and love, to keep a clean and inviting home and be frugal and resourceful. I know this is my calling--please guide me and strengthen me! Help me to bring honor to You and my family!
Today I am challenged and convicted by my reading in Ecclesiastes to apply myself more to the work God has given me! I am so blessed to be home raising my family. I've wanted this for so long, and God even changed Josh's heart on the matter so I'm certain I'm to be home teaching my children and taking care of my husband and our home. There are many days I'm tempted to call it quits and enroll our kids in public school because it would be easier on me to do the housework that gets so sorely neglected! There are days I wonder why the Lord didn't gift me to keep house if this is what He's called me to. There are times when fatigue and temper get the best of me and I wonder why I'm bothering with home education at all. When all of this negativity and second-guessing strikes I remind myself that I MUST be doing the right thing because following God won't always be easy! And all of these thoughts that are telling me to quit, give up, give in, stop--I know I shouldn't listen because the Holy Spirit usually speaks in the affirmative, right? And if He is telling me no, then I would've gotten the point by now.
So in reading Ecclesiastes tonight I've come to a realization: if God has assigned me to be a stay-at-home-mom and home educator, then if I'm applying myself with diligence, then a whole lot of my negative self-doubt should cease! Eccl. 11:4 "He who observes the wind will not sow, and he who regards the clouds will not reap." I'm very guilty of letting the "what ifs" keep me from accomplishing something. I'm l-a-z-y! It's a sinful nature I'm so tired of and really need to give to God! I have tried and tried, certainly, but maybe not hard enough? Eccl. 9:10 "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work or device or knowledge or wisdom in the grave where you are going." I owe it to God who's gifted me with a family to care for to love them and care for them with might and diligence. When I'm gone, I'm gone; there will be no mother or wife to love, instruct, and care for them as I have done. Should the Lord call me home sooner rather than later, the work I have done will have an enormous impact on how my family continues--will they follow the Lord in all things? Will they keep house and care for each other? Will they children's education continue in a manner pleasing to the Lord? I must use the time I'm blessed with to prepare my children's hearts and minds to serve God with joy and gladness. My husband should know my passion for him and should find rest in his home so we can enjoy time as a family when he is off work.
Dearest Lord, I come to You humbled and a bit daunted by the work You have assigned me! I need Your help greatly! Please give me the discipline and focus to care for my family--to nurture my husband and children, to instruct and love, to keep a clean and inviting home and be frugal and resourceful. I know this is my calling--please guide me and strengthen me! Help me to bring honor to You and my family!
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