Showing posts with label parenting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label parenting. Show all posts

Friday, January 6, 2012

Turn and Live

Today I am thankful for: Darrin doing well meeting his goals at speech, reading stories to Moo in the waiting room at Lucid, being able to help out at produce day for our co-op, fresh fruits and veggies, the kids having fun at the park, visiting with Kary, enjoying dinner at home with my family, my babies' smiles, kisses from my hubby.

I'm reading in Ezekiel and came to chapter 18 tonight.  It made me think.  I've long pondered things such as what the lukewarm church would look like and where it would come from; I've begun to notice the past few years that it is forming right now here in America, also around the world.  It seems that so many churches are compromising the integrity of their faith by becoming "tolerant" and expanding their views, adding interpretation to biblical truths that shouldn't require any.  It's really frightening and disheartening to witness.  No one wants to think about people going to hell, but to broaden your congregation by tolerating certain sins as acceptable or saying that all roads lead to God and heaven doesn't save anyone from a rather warm fate, least of all the church leaders encouraging their wannabe saints.

Church is definitely a place for the broken.  God doesn't call only "good" or righteous people to His fold--in fact we are told that none of us is good, that Jesus Himself is the only truly good person to walk the earth.  Believers should be welcoming people from all walks of life to join each Sunday in a great sinners' convention meeting--for when it comes down to it, we are all the same.  Each of us is a sinner, no one better or worse that another.  Some might be in a better place of admitting their sin and choosing to love God and please Him, thereby appearing to be "better" or "nicer" than others.  Some might be lost and broken, complete messes wandering in society or maybe even incarcerated.  But at the heart of it all, we are ALL sinners, broken by choices to please ourselves and left with God-sized holes in our hearts.

The problem with society, especially in America, is that we want to qualify ourselves--well, at least I don't smoke, or I've never killed anyone, or I don't steal, or I don't let my children watch t.v all day long, I don't, I don't, I don't.  Our "I don'ts" don't mean much to God because when we are too busy looking around at others to compare ourselves with we take our eyes off Him.  We forget that Jesus is the standard, HE is the mark by which we are all judged.  And what does "sin" mean?  It means to miss the mark.  Sin isn't just about doing wrong things, it's about not doing the right things.  So there thousands of church-goers warming pews each week, patting themselves on the back for being "Christian" because they give money and sit quietly and get through the week without harming anyone; they aren't doing anything wrong.  But what aren't they doing right?

This, I believe is the foundation of the lukewarm church.  People have lost touch with God and are more concerned about what people think, about keeping up appearances.  God doesn't care what you look like; He sees your heart.  These people are probably so deluded by being what a Christian isn't, that they have forgotten what being a Christian is.  This bring me back to my opening paragraph.  God laid out His statutes so plainly for His people that there was no excuse not to follow them.  They weren't easy, but they had a purpose.  Once Jesus came and died for our sins then conquered death through His resurrection, we simply had to choose to love Him and grow to be more like Him in all ways...ALL ways.  You can't claim to be a follower of Christ and not love, but you also can't ignore the things He spoke against.  People today don't want to say "no" to anything; they are afraid of standing for something and saying it's wrong--it's just so much easier to say that everything is right as long as no one gets hurt!  They claim that God is unfair and a "loving God" wouldn't condemn people to hell just for disagreeing with Him.

God is holy..HOLY.  He created the world, so I think He has a right to dictate it's rules to keep things in order.  He gave us free will to make our own choices, though He wants us to choose to love Him.  If we were forced to love Him, then that wouldn't really be love at all, right?  The fact is, God doesn't necessarily send us to hell, but we choose to go there by rejecting Him and disobeying Him.  Parents often tell their children that there are consequences to their actions, and that when a negative consequence ensues the child, in effect, "chose" it; afterall, the parents set the rules and they are pretty clear.  If you want happy consequences, do this; negative consequences, do that.  Society isn't any different, and when someone breaks a law we generally are pretty unsympathetic; he knew what he was doing, right?  He knew what would happen!  God tells us the same thing.  Ezekiel 18:25-29 "Yet you say, 'The way of the Lord is not fair.' Hear now, O house of Israel, is it not My way which is fair, and your ways which are not fair? When a righteous man turns away from his righteousness, commits iniquity, and dies in it, it is because of the iniquity which he has done that he dies.  Again, when a wicked man turns away from the wickedness which he committed, and does what is lawful and right, he preserves himself alive.  Because he considers and turns away from all the transgressions which he committed, he shall surely live; he shall not die.  Yet the house of Israel says, 'The way of the Lord is not fair.'  O house of Israel, is it not My ways which are fair, and your ways which are not fair?"

God isn't hard and unyielding, He's holy and the epitome of integrity.  He set a standard we can't meet, but He pours out grace upon us and has made a way for us to have a reward we don't deserve.  The beautiful thing is that He loves us and wants us to choose Him!  He gave us a choice, but He certainly has a preference for what choice we make.  I know my God is a God of love because He set boundaries for us, clear expectations for living.  And, like our earthly parents, He corrects us for our own good when we go astray.  When parents say "this hurts me more than it hurts you" it's really true; it hurts to be disrespected and disobeyed by someone you would give your life for, and it hurts to have to inflict pain upon that person even though she deserves it as a consequence of her actions.  God said something similar to Ezekiel: "'Therefore I will judge you, O house of Israel, every one according to his ways,' says the Lord God. 'Repent, and turn from all your transgressions, so that iniquity will not be your ruin. Cast away from you all the transgressions which you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit.  For why should you die, O house of Israel?  For I have no pleasure in the death of one who dies,' says the Lord God.  'Therefore turn and live!'" (Ezekiel 18:30-32)


Father God, I thank You that I was taught of Your great love for me, that the fear I have for You is out of respect and not pain.  I am so thankful that I turned away from my transgressions and chose life over death!  Thank You for every person You set in my path that showed me the meaning of love by accepting who I was and teaching me how to reconcile that with Your plan for me.  You made me!  You created every aspect of my very being, and it is so amazing to finally be realizing my purpose, though I won't understand everything all at once.  For now it is enough to know that I can rejoice in my own self because You made me; I can have joy in reaching my full potential because I desire to glorify You.  Help me to focus on what You WANT me to be, and not on what You don't want me to be.  By being more like You I will be able to let go of those things that are undesirable.  Help me to love others with Your compassion and Your intensity.  Help me to show them their value and accept them where they are and however they are so that the door is opened for Your Holy Spirit to do It's transforming work!  Break my heart for what breaks Your own heart, Jesus!  And please help me to act on that love.  Thank You for Your amazing grace.  Praise be to You alone!  In Jesus' name, Amen!

Friday, November 11, 2011

On Being Diligent...

Today I am thankful for: feeling better!, Darrin's willingness to practice tkd, Madi's loving heart, Josh being Josh (I love how he makes me feel better just by being himself!), a brief conversation with my mom, a beautiful fall day, the coming rain, my son telling me he loves me forever forever forever & forever

Today I am challenged and convicted by my reading in Ecclesiastes to apply myself more to the work God has given me!  I am so blessed to be home raising my family.  I've wanted this for so long, and God even changed Josh's heart on the matter so I'm certain I'm to be home teaching my children and taking care of my husband and our home.  There are many days I'm tempted to call it quits and enroll our kids in public school because it would be easier on me to do the housework that gets so sorely neglected!  There are days I wonder why the Lord didn't gift me to keep house if this is what He's called me to.  There are times when fatigue and temper get the best of me and I wonder why I'm bothering with home education at all.  When all of this negativity and second-guessing strikes I remind myself that I MUST be doing the right thing because following God won't always be easy!  And all of these thoughts that are telling me to quit, give up, give in, stop--I know I shouldn't listen because the Holy Spirit usually speaks in the affirmative, right?  And if He is telling me no, then I would've gotten the point by now.

So in reading Ecclesiastes tonight I've come to a realization:  if God has assigned me to be a stay-at-home-mom and home educator, then if I'm applying myself with diligence, then a whole lot of my negative self-doubt should cease!  Eccl. 11:4 "He who observes the wind will not sow, and he who regards the clouds will not reap."  I'm very guilty of letting the "what ifs" keep me from accomplishing something.  I'm l-a-z-y!  It's a sinful nature I'm so tired of and really need to give to God!  I have tried and tried, certainly, but maybe not hard enough?  Eccl. 9:10 "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work or device or knowledge or wisdom in the grave where you are going."  I owe it to God who's gifted me with a family to care for to love them and care for them with might and diligence.  When I'm gone, I'm gone; there will be no mother or wife to love, instruct, and care for them as I have done.  Should the Lord call me home sooner rather than later, the work I have done will have an enormous impact on how my family continues--will they follow the Lord in all things?  Will they keep house and care for each other?  Will they children's education continue in a manner pleasing to the Lord?  I must use the time I'm blessed with to prepare my children's hearts and minds to serve God with joy and gladness.  My husband should know my passion for him and should find rest in his home so we can enjoy time as a family when he is off work.

Dearest Lord, I come to You humbled and a bit daunted by the work You have assigned me!  I need Your help greatly!  Please give me the discipline and focus to care for my family--to nurture my husband and children, to instruct and love, to keep a clean and inviting home and be frugal and resourceful.  I know this is my calling--please guide me and strengthen me!  Help me to bring honor to You and my family!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Praise Him, Praise Him All Ye Little Children!

Today I am thankful for: cool night air, my children's laughter and joy, Darrin having a good day at tkd, Madi eating well, cooler weather coming, Josh skipping WOW last night to spend time with me

I just began Book 4 of Psalms and it is so uplifting!  Each psalm has been a beautiful cry to the Lord praising Him for His awesome power, His creation, His holiness and goodness, etc.  Our God is awesome!  Tonight during dinner the kids and I were listening to praise music and we had a wonderful little discussion about praising God.  I love seeing them love Him and worship Him!  I love hearing them express their love for Him in their own little ways.  Their words are so pure, so genuine, and though they may not always make the most sense I know that their hearts are praising Him to the fullest the best they know how!  It gives me such joy to see my children growing in faith and love for the Lord.  I can only imagine they joy HE feels seeing them and hearing them. Oh, I pray we are teaching them and nurturing them in the right way!  I pray that their foundation in God will be firm and that they'll not stray form His guidance as they grow older, but instead they'll draw nearer to Him.

Thank You, Lord, for these precious children!  Josh and I are so blessed to be their parents!  Help us to be examples of Christian living that encourage them to turn to You and follow Your path and not walk away.  We give them to You for they will always be Yours!