Today I'm thankful for: Crossroads, my in-loves (Dan & Ellen)
Today in church, Pastor Chuck began his 24/7 series. It was amazing! The vision he has for where our church is headed over the next 2 years is great indeed. Less than one day into the challenge to commit to God like never before, I've already encountered Him. At bedtime Darrin had some tough questions all about death and dying--does it hurt? how do we get to heaven? what happens? etc... I'm not sure what brought all of this on, but I answered him as honestly as I could. He was a bit nervous and frightened, doing that little laugh-cry that he does with the little corners of his mouth pulling downward. As soon as I left his room I fell apart! I cried gut-wrenching sobs for some time. I'm still not sure why, though. I prayed hard--for my children, my dad, comfort for myself--I just put myself honestly before God asking for His help. It all made me wonder: do I put my kids before God? Can I be like Abraham, willing to let go of them if God asks? And how do you know for sure? I like to think I put God first, but how do I know if I'm being fully obedient to that?
Maybe the whole reason for this is so that I can be more aware of my priorities. As a homeschooling mom I'm sure it will be easy to live more for my kids, telling myself it's what God wants! So I'm going to make sure that my time with Him is away from my kids so that distractions are at a minimum.
I want so much MORE of Him I think I'll burst! I'm excited for the coming 24 months. I can't wait to see what they bring!
Today in church, Pastor Chuck began his 24/7 series. It was amazing! The vision he has for where our church is headed over the next 2 years is great indeed. Less than one day into the challenge to commit to God like never before, I've already encountered Him. At bedtime Darrin had some tough questions all about death and dying--does it hurt? how do we get to heaven? what happens? etc... I'm not sure what brought all of this on, but I answered him as honestly as I could. He was a bit nervous and frightened, doing that little laugh-cry that he does with the little corners of his mouth pulling downward. As soon as I left his room I fell apart! I cried gut-wrenching sobs for some time. I'm still not sure why, though. I prayed hard--for my children, my dad, comfort for myself--I just put myself honestly before God asking for His help. It all made me wonder: do I put my kids before God? Can I be like Abraham, willing to let go of them if God asks? And how do you know for sure? I like to think I put God first, but how do I know if I'm being fully obedient to that?
Maybe the whole reason for this is so that I can be more aware of my priorities. As a homeschooling mom I'm sure it will be easy to live more for my kids, telling myself it's what God wants! So I'm going to make sure that my time with Him is away from my kids so that distractions are at a minimum.
I want so much MORE of Him I think I'll burst! I'm excited for the coming 24 months. I can't wait to see what they bring!
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