Today I am thankful for: a quiet day at home, my son telling me he loves me for 10,000 years because that's more than forever <3, my daughter's loud bedtime prayers, yummy In-N-Out for dinner, warm showers, a clean kitchen, fall decorations around the house, Josh's new cologne
I know I'll never understand the ways of God; praise Him in His sovereignty, though! I just finished reading Esther. I'ts amazing how God used this beautiful orphan girl and raised her up to be queen and save the Jews from slaughter. What a victory for God's people! But I can't help but wonder about the vengeance taken on their enemies--the Jews, in turn, killed over 75 thousand men! I wrestle with whether or not this was the "right" thing to do. Is it what God intended? I know that enmity between the Persians and Jews was strong, and there would've been no thought to annihilating the Jews in like manner; the king had previously decreed that it be so. It just makes me wonder at the love of God. None of this was new to Him! I wonder just how much it hurts Him to lose one person, even a "bad" person, to hell. I know just how much He loves me--and I'm a sinner like every other human He's created! Does God's love for His followers overshadow the love and loss of nonbelievers? God is HOLY and sin CANNOT go unpunished. I won't presume to try and "think" for God--who am I to try and understand Him? But I pray that the Lord breaks my heart for the things that break His so that I might better serve Him and share His love with others!
I know I'll never understand the ways of God; praise Him in His sovereignty, though! I just finished reading Esther. I'ts amazing how God used this beautiful orphan girl and raised her up to be queen and save the Jews from slaughter. What a victory for God's people! But I can't help but wonder about the vengeance taken on their enemies--the Jews, in turn, killed over 75 thousand men! I wrestle with whether or not this was the "right" thing to do. Is it what God intended? I know that enmity between the Persians and Jews was strong, and there would've been no thought to annihilating the Jews in like manner; the king had previously decreed that it be so. It just makes me wonder at the love of God. None of this was new to Him! I wonder just how much it hurts Him to lose one person, even a "bad" person, to hell. I know just how much He loves me--and I'm a sinner like every other human He's created! Does God's love for His followers overshadow the love and loss of nonbelievers? God is HOLY and sin CANNOT go unpunished. I won't presume to try and "think" for God--who am I to try and understand Him? But I pray that the Lord breaks my heart for the things that break His so that I might better serve Him and share His love with others!
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